…What followed was six months of unemployment. I managed to get four interviews; one of which was for a clerical post at one of the local mental hospitals, none led to a job offer. I wrote at the time: ‘It took me several days before I could bring myself to sign-on the dole, it seemed to me to be a gesture of defeat. I felt guilty and ashamed at being out of work; perhaps the legacy of a middle class upbringing… I felt all I had to do was keep filling in application forms and a job would turn-up… The handful of interviews I did have all seemed to go well, l felt they liked me, then came the letter of rejection… After a time you find yourself writing less and less applications and you lower your expectations of employment; you take positive steps to avoid further rejection and alienation from employed society… After several months I could see in the faces of friends that they did not believe I could not get a job’. After Christmas 1982 I packed-up my flat, accepted the offer from the university of my choice for the following October, and left for Paris to stay with my sister. After a few weeks sleeping on her floor, I wrote out an advertising card to place on the notice board of the British Council, it began; ‘I’ll do anything!’ Amazingly I got a response - it turned out to be the greatest stroke of luck I’d ever had.
Some farm jobs are highly skilled and interesting to learn, but once learnt become monotonous to do because of their repetitive nature. Others require flexibility and a high level of concentration. Some jobs require little skill and are just drudgery. Spring pruning of vines using traditional methods is a skilled job. First you have to bend horizontal and tie the two remaining branches of last year’s growth to the wire frame using twigs of willow, carried in bundle around your waste. Two knots are required for each branch and the surplus willow cut with a knife. If the job is done on time, you won’t come back to the same vine for maybe another six weeks. Then the new growth from the tied branches can be pruned, a judgement must be made about which two new branches will grow the strongest so as to become next year’s horizontals - but they also have to be the most likely to bare grapes. They are then woven vertically between the higher wires of the frame. Then the rest of the new growth has to be either removed or woven vertically depending on the likelihood of them bearing grapes. (Sometimes, if the schedule is lost, you have to do some pruning before tying). Then you move on to the next vine. There may be forty or fifty vines in a row, a row may be as narrow as six feet. Nine hectares is a lot of vines for half a dozen people to complete in the six weeks or so before they become overgrown. You’ve just got to be quick, you need a certain rhythm and choreography. (Traditional methods did of course vary according to the variety of vine, the type of wire frame etc. - even within the Bordeaux region where I was).
Happiness in work is more strongly associated with the use of a person’s skills than with the material reward received. In psychology there is a concept known as ‘flow’; it comes to those who can lose themselves in their work, it comes to children playing games, it comes (if you’re lucky) when making love. It is the sense of happiness that comes from the loss of self-consciousness. To be happy in your work, you need a job which uses all your skills and then asks for just a little bit more.
Some jobs however are communal and require a lot of team work, like the killing and butchering of an animal. During my Business Studies course we visited an abattoir. (The slaughterhouses of Chicago were the inspiration for Henry Ford’s moving assembly line - though they of course disassembled). We watched each part of the process broken down into the detailed division of labour, each man is given a few simple tasks that he could repeat at speed. Pigs were corralled six at a time, then electrodes applied simultaneously to the temples of the first animal. The stunned animal was then hoisted by a leg and it’s throat cut, the blood draining away as it moved slowly along the gantry to where it would be immersed in the machine containing boiling water and which would scrap of the hair. The remaining pigs became increasingly more agitated and vocal as their turn approached. The circumstances surrounding the killing of an animal on a small farm are very different. (A description of the killing of a pig in a traditional way on a French peasant’s farm is given by John Berger in Pig Earth). It is those who have bred, feed and nurtured the animal who will kill it, butcher it and eventually eat it. They have valued the animal and in turn know it will sustain them. The killing of a pig or sheep my involve everyone for a whole day - killing, slaughtering, butchering, and preserving. As much of the animal as possible will be used, such as the blood and brains. I remember the killing of a pregnant ewe who had broken a leg. People worked together quietly, smoothly; without the noise and violence of the factory. Those involved gave reverence and respect both to the animal and themselves. The carcass and unborn lamb were buried on the farm.
Meat is for feasting and flavouring. There is a festival or feast day somewhere in the world, for every day of the year. Obviously the fourth and fourteenth of July were an excuse for a party - but so was Swiss Dependence Day! We’d have a fire outside, partially melt a whole Swiss cheese and grill sausages, practice yodelling and drink Swiss beer. At some point during my first visit I acquired my nickname ‘Danger’ or ‘Nick Danger’; as in some fearless comic strip hero - it was meant to be ironic since I never volunteered for any of the dodgier jobs, like repairing the tiles on the roof of the barn, or taking a tractor on the steepest slopes. Alas the name stuck since my then girlfriend found it hilarious and used it all the time!
One evening I got into conversation with a guy (whose name and background I have totally forgotten) about left-handedness and how I’d always suffered academically as a result - like not being able to spell! He suggested we do an exercise their and then. He got me to read aloud a paragraph from a magazine. I was a bit slow and haltering. He then told me to read it backwards, this time I was faster and more rhythmic - amazing! He then got me to march-on-the-spot, telling me to swing my left arm with the right leg and vice versa. After a second or two he stopped me, pointing out that I’d done the opposite, raising the left arm with the left leg and vice versa. Once I’d done it the ‘right’ way for about thirty times he stopped me and swiftly ran the knuckle of one finger up the full length of my spine. He then gave me a different paragraph to read aloud - this time it was much easier, faster and more fluent. It forced me to think about brain and body, hand/eye co-ordination, and the psychological distress that might follow from the lack of it; of being left handed in a right-handed world, and of course asymmetry itself.
When I had done my Business Studies course the subject that interested me most was Industrial Relations. But there was no first degree course in the subject, so it had to be done as a specialisation within another subject, I chose Sociology. But I’d never studied any Sociology before! During evenings on the farm I sat by the fire and read an introduction to the subject. It seemed to be about every imaginable relationships between people; from simple conversations to the political and economic structures of whole nations. It also ranged from management and worker relations in factories and offices (supposedly my subject) to developing societies (the Third World and peasant societies of the past) seemingly connected to the kind of community I found myself in. Finally there were the studies of institutions like prisons, the military and mental hospitals - what was I letting myself in for?
When I came to leave the farm and stepped of the train in Paris I experienced what has been described as ‘culture shock’! The noise, the speed at which people moved and things happened, the artificial light. What an alien world, surely it was the environment that drove people crazy…
Chateau Brandeau is now owned and run as an organic vineyard by the son and daughter-in-law of the couple who owned it in my time - see links.
love what you write - so much obvious 'sense'; right, i'm off to C.B. ...!
ReplyDelete(tina kennedy, from CCD)