What gets called mental disorder or illness, mild or severe, shows itself as a misplaced fear of others. Personal relationships break down, followed by an inability to form and maintain new ones. The sufferer becomes progressively more emotionally and cognitively isolated. Madness results from our failure to constantly update and modify our mental map of the world. If we do not ‘test’ our predictions, beliefs, dreams, thoughts, internal dialogue, fantasies, hypotheses, plans, ideas about how the world is, and what the people within it think and feel, our map becomes rapidly out of date. If we act with an out of date model of the world - we will look mad to others, and they will treat us as mad. If others don’t share a large part of our model of reality we are emotionally and cognitively isolated. We need an accurate map; by sharing we come to have a more complete understanding than we could ever achieve alone. The ability to doubt and live with uncertainty, and hence know that we must constantly test our vision of the world - is sanity. To control and fix our view is the first step on the road to disaster and the way an unchanging outlook is maintained is by isolating oneself from any evidence that might contradict it. An unmodified and out of date model of the world is one where our thoughts and feelings are anchored in the past, hence our predictions of the future may be hopelessly wrong.



Sunday 28 April 2019

Never say never again - inpatient 2016

The view of Haytor from the Haytor Unit, a view I'd first seen 22 years before when it was called the Edith Morgan Centre (did the 45 mile version of Ten Tors in 1977.) (photo by Nick Hewling)

Luckily I was transferred to the old Cypress Independent Hospital within the week (Community Care Trust as was.) (photo by Nick Hewling)

Some argument about Wordsworth, probably me saying something about always read the original and remember the context - wild daffodils, between the edge of the mere and the tree line. (photo by Nick Hewling)

Not difficult to scare oneself (photo by Nick Hewling)

Still had to serve-out 28 days, part of deal, still cheers! (selfie by Nick Hewling)


 


Monday 22 April 2019

Time and space - inpatient 2014

Location on, screenshot by Nick Hewling

Tortured by the view, photo by Nick Hewling
Selfie, clearly I had more kit than 'they' did, photo by Nick Hewling 
1.12.2014 10,48 food obsessed, photo by Nick Hewling
2.12.2014 17,00 must have been out, photo by Nick Hewling

Tuesday 16 April 2019

Where my head is at now

For my most recent mental health writing see Natural Mental Health. Everything else promised on this site is coming, and more besides, eventually!
New header photo 2019 (photo by Nick Hewling)